張愛玲的封鎖最後兩段英文翻譯 The last two paragraphs of Sealed Off

The Norton Anthology World Literature裡選錄的封鎖Sealed Off Translated by Karen Kingsbury沒有最後兩段,估狗了老半天找不到,請我妹幫忙,連她都找不到,這代表了並不是我笨...請老師幫忙,他居然回答,"你翻吧!" @@"

我盡力了,可是雖然我盡量很忠實地按照字面翻~味道好像不見了

有沒有人可以幫我修...

        

          呂宗楨到家正趕上吃晚飯。他一面吃一面閱讀他女兒的成績報告單，剛寄來的。他還記得電車上那一回事，可是翠遠的臉已經有點模糊——那是天生使人忘記的臉。他不記得她說了些什么，可是他自己的話他記得很清楚——溫柔地：

　　“你——几歲？”慷慨激昂地：“我不能讓你犧牲了你的前程！”

　　飯后，他接過熱手巾，擦著臉，踱到臥室里來，扭開了電燈。一只烏殼虫從房這頭爬到房那頭，爬了一半，燈一開，它只得伏在地板的正中，一動也不動。在裝死么？在思想著么？整天爬來爬去，很少有思想的時間罷？然而思想畢竟是痛苦的。宗楨捻滅了電燈，手按在机括上，手心汗潮了，渾身一滴滴沁出汗來，像小虫子痒痒地在爬。他又開了燈，烏殼虫不見了，爬回窠里去了。

　　（一九四三年八月）

         Lu Zongzhen arrived home in time for dinner. He was eating while reading his daughter's report card which had just arrived. He remembered what had happened on the tramcar, but Cuiyuan's face was a bit of a blur --- a face that was born to forget. He couldn't remember what she said, but he remembered his own words very well--- gently:

"How old --- are you?” and then it turned into a voice full of pain, “No, this won’t do! I can’t let you sacrifice your future!”

         He was given a hot, wet, washcloth to wipe his face after the meal, then he walked to the bedroom, turned on the light. A black shell bug that was crawling halfway to the other end of the room crouched there motionless when the light turned on. Are you playing dead? Are you thinking? Crawling all day long, do you have time to think? Thinking is a painful business after all. Zongzhen turned off the light, and kept his finger on the switch. His palms started to sweat, and the beads of sweat started oozing on his body like small insects crawling. He turned on the light again. The black shell bug disappeared, crawled back to the nest.

         (August 1943)